As I sit here lying in bed with my computer back from the dead (after a lengthy repair process) I just have to laugh as I bask in gratitude. It is quite fitting as I said goodbye to 2010 and welcome 2011 with open arms. I had quite the year in 2009, it included graduating from chiropractic college, moving back home for 3 months saying goodbye to friends and family, followed by a 6 month globe trot halfway around the world, and closed with the opening of my first chiropractic clinic. If anything, I was looking forward to having stability in 2010. Well I was hit with a stark reality, my life revolves around chaos.
The beginning of 2010 placed me in Indonesia, with no knowledge of the language, no friends or family and not a dime to my name. I scratched and clawed to grow a clinic from the ground up only to see myself uprooted and deported out of the country. I landed in Singapore with a backpack on my shoulders and most of my possessions still back in Indonesia. I bounced around from hotel to hotel, and floors of two of my boss’ empty homes only to find out I could not return to Indonesia, a country I was starting to call home, for one whole year. After practicing in two Singapore clinics I decided to take two weeks and head to Thailand to get my head clear. Upon arrival back into Singapore I discovered I would be opening a new clinic there, I would only have to wait three more months.
I vividly remember after getting back from Thailand, sitting in my boss/mentor’s car with tears flowing uncontrollably from my eyes. Why was everything in shambles for me? I had prepared so hard for this moment, the chance to practice chiropractic, the chance to make a difference in people’s lives. I was completely discombobulated, totally confused. What should I do? I thought seriously about giving up my dream of becoming a great chiropractor, perhaps the universe was trying to point me in a different direction.
It’s funny when you look at the curve balls life throws at us. I truly believe we are tested to see what we are made of, and yes the strong survive. Calvin Coolidge said it best: Nothing in this world can take the place of persistence. Talent will not; nothing is more common than unsuccessful people with talent. Genius will not; unrewarded genius is almost a proverb. Education will not; the world is full of educated derelicts. Persistence and determination alone are omnipotent. The slogan “press on” has solved and always will solve the problems of the human race.
With the help from some of you and some good ole words from cool Cal, I made the choice to put my head down and move forward. So here it is…
In 2010 I began my career practicing chiropractic, I started two clinics from scratch in two different countries, I was on television twice, I learned what it felt like to become deported, I was published in two chiropractic journals, I went out with a Miss Indonesia finalist, I lost everything financially, TWICE, I traveled with a great healer through the Golden Land (Thailand), I lived in a guesthouse, a high rise apartment, two hotels, and floors of two different houses, I shed more tears and had more self doubt than in any time of my life, and while building the second clinic, increased my income ten fold in two months time.
In 2010, I truly can say I laid it all on the line. It was painful, crazy, and exhilarating all at the same time. I now sit in gratitude as the second clinic is flourishing, and I’m having a blast once again turning on life in the clinic each and everyday. In 2010, I not only hit the bottom of the barrel, I got trapped in it while it was rolled down a steep hill. I wouldn’t change anything about the tumultuous year, because it was in 2010, that I faced the biggest challenges in my young career.
Chaos, is it a good thing? On the other side of chaos lies growth. Chaos is necessary for adaptation, for survival. We all have a dream, however, are we going to shrivel up and turn our backs when challenges come our way? Or do we choose to be steadfast and exhibit perseverance like President Coolidge suggested? What are we willing to do to make our dreams reality?
John Demartini said, “You must do whatever it takes, travel whatever distance, and pay whatever price.”
May your journey be fruitful, and full of chaos.